People do not understand, but I only have a pain to live that weighs me heavy on my heart. Who follows me permanently, even if it's okay. It's hard to explain and the world does not want to understand anyway. At first, I only believed that I had the heart that felt the emotions a little-louder than the others. But it's more than that. That's more than I thought. I was never clear enough to realize that it was my mind that was going away.
A hollow that broke me much more than I thought. My past ended up hurting me even though all that I saw my brain has this facility to remove the bad passes I made there live. At the bottom, unconsciously, there remembers him. But not me.
I forgot myself somewhere, in order to survive. The others also easily forget me. One after another leaves. I'm getting used to, despite my quick attachment. They can rarely live and understand why a little nothing affects me. Why do I get angry in the same way? It is normal to feel what, but the level of my emotion is unjustifiable. Incomprehensible. That I give all that I have and that I forget myself not to be left. At the same time, how can they love me if I do not love myself? I love each other every other day. And even if the morning goes, in the evening it can be hell. I become my worst enemy in front of the mirror.
How to answer their questions when the past comes back to haunt me? Why did I do that? Why are you not okay? I dunno. They do not like me. I do not like myself. In each down, the solutions disappear. Fuck they can not understand. The deep evil that is hollowing out. The invisible weight that comes to rest on our shoulders and which becomes heavier with every fucking tear that flows on our cheek. One cries too much to arrive at placing a single word that makes sense. Anyway, it will not change our life shit. Our black thoughts. In those moments, there was hope. They leave people. I understand them, I was also afraid of myself.
In the end, we wonder why we exist when we do not go anywhere? Chess on other failures and we become what? A mistake. That no one wants to love. #adidaswomen #adidas #girly #girls #girl #bathroom #bath #lost #depressed